1 year

Sometimes in life we dream, dream of the future and the beauty of the future. How marvelous it would be, the perfect life with the people we love. I dreamt throughout my life, an ever going Christmas dinner, family events where I would never seem to grow up, where i was surrounded by those i love and those who love me.

Its been exactly a year since my sister passed away. Many fond memories come back to me, some were not funny then like how she broke my fingernail (though it is now) and the many times she has helped and shaped my life.

If its anything, its regret. I regret not being there when she needed me, when she needed people who loves her by her side. I was not there by her side throughout the whole ordeal nor did i hear her voice for a few weeks. This really taught me to treasure things around me, everything because nothing last forever. I took my sister for granted and this is the price i payed.

The pain is there and i believe those who knew my sister personally would feel the same. Its not something anyone can simply describe, a joyful person who is always an inspiration and motivation to everyone around despite all circumstances, a patient person who listened to all my babbling without discounting anything i said, a strong person who never wavered under any circumstances, an influencer of lives just like how she has influenced my life. There are many things to harp about, i feel the loss and i know its going to be near impossible to find it again. No matter how i search, i can't find the same person, the same love that i once had.

I miss you che and wished for eternity with you