Friday, 17 October 2008

language problems

I was just reading this funny ass experience that my aunty had (she sent me a copy of what happened). Hope it brings those you read it a smile too.

I had a bunch of Canadian dollars I needed to exchange, so I went to the currency exchange window at the local bank in Vancouver.

Just one lady in front of me . . .a little old Asian ladywho was trying to exchange yen for dollars and she was more than a little irritated.She asked the teller,'Why it change?? Yesterday, I get two hunat dolla fo yen. Today I gethunat eighty?? Why it change? Why it change?'The teller looked at the old lady, shrugged his shoulders and said,'Fluctuations.

'The Asian lady angrily replied, 'Fluc you white people, too!'

Wednesday, 8 October 2008

Balance - The central dogma of human life

Remarkably, since the ancient times man has talked about balance. By the way, I know this topic is kind of hopeful for half of you but though i'm studying food science, i'm not talking about balancing a person's diet here. So this is not teaching you ways to lose weight but if you include a cheque of $5000, i'll gladly impart my knowledge to you...

-Abstract thinking ahead-
As many should have heard or at least seen of the yin-yang drawing from the chinese religion (taoism), its really about balance. Even good old zen (japanese) and feng shui has stuff about balance. In life without knowing, we will always revolve around equilibriums and face problems that would balance out life in general. There is a time for everything and a season for all activities. In life, regardless of how much we push, we will still yield to the flow of the world. As much as we fight the current, we will still be swept away by it. In life again, no matter how seemingly insignificant the actions we do, it is what creates the flow of man-kind. No matter how much we wish to control the flow of the world, in time it will be nothing but chasing of the wind.

In life, there is always balance, as if its to highlight and remind us the otherside of life. For if there is no darkness, how will we know there is light? If there is no sickness, how will we know what is good health? If there is no death, how will we know what is living? The anguish of man is only doubled because we know what is joy.

Indeed... There is a time for everything, a season for all activities under the sun. Life is a balance of everything, for if there is man, there is woman. If you hear thunder there was lightning, if there is a chicken, there is an egg and it goes the other way around as well.

Various seasons or time in life: There is...

A time of death, a time of birth.
A time of war, a time of peace
A time of anguish, a time of bliss
A time of pain, a time of pleasure
A time of old age, a time of youth
A time to cry, a time to laugh
A time of silence, a time of noise
A time of hate, a time of love
A time of weeping, a time of laughing
A time to be sick, a time to be healed.
A time to chase, a time to give up
A time to eat, a time to fast

For in life, there is a balance we cannot see through ourselves but through observing the cycles of life. Balance is the key to understand philosophy and the ways of living our lives. Some find chaos in peace whereas some find peace in chaos. For all of mankind, there is never one right answer, for the answers are in the perspectives of the individual's mind. How many seek to find the meaning of life but end up losing their life. For as its expected, where there is life, there is death and thus the balance of life restarts the cycle again...

There is death.... Now theres life.

Thursday, 2 October 2008

Beloved

Its been 2 months, exactly 2 months since the end of what i would call an epic battle where my sister in all her strength and valour fought against leukemia and later on included 2 different infections. Traces of my sister still permeate the room and apartment i stay in Australia. The events that happened when i was young, when she defended me, cheered me up, pissed me off, broke off one of my fingernails by accident when closing a window, me commenting on her raiding timing when playing WoW... Its really endless. The song amazing grace still fills my head as i remember the bus that carried my sister's body to the creamation hall, it all seems so yesterday. Even just the day before, i had a dream where i was praying desparately for my sister to get well, where she was still alive to only wake and and realise in dread the harshness of reality.

To my late sister i wrote a song last month, which is the first month anniversary. With whatever music capacity i had, i wrote the song named: Beloved. Below are the lyrics though the chords are not included.

Beloved
(Verse A)
As the seasons pass,
Under the clear blue sky,
Just as it has been before,
That same wind blows by again

(Verse B)
Moving through the green grass,
Smiling serenely everywhere,
Flowers flowing pass the princess,
In that twilight of the eye

(Bridge)
Once again the pain has come again,
But you stood right against it,
Moving against the strong current,
Was what touched the hundreds

(Chorus A)
Dearest Beloved
So what now? Now where have you gone?
Once again you have gone right beyond my reach
And again I'll have you waiting for me

You knew it yourself, no matter where you went
Your're on your own again and i'm so sorry
You were the inspiration of my life

Ah~ just like before
From the start you were everyone's beloved

(Bridge 2)
The times you fell down again
You always stood up again
Not shedding a single tear
For the sake of those you love

(Chorus B)
Dearest beloved
Have you escaped all that haunts you?
With love you always stood so strong
Just like you have done to the end

Where have you gone?
You are wanted by everyone
Come back if you can, you are so wanted
Let us see you just that one last time

Ah~ just like before
From the start you were everyone's beloved
Ah~just like now
You are still everyone's beloved

To all whom know and met my sister. I thank you for shaping her life, bringing joy and colour into her. For when i was young, the one that influenced me the most was my sister and still do even in her passing. I really can't thank enough those who were by her side at the last moments praying and from the bottom of my heart wished that i had that chance to be there myself. To various friends that helped me out alot during this period (Kai Jin, Tanny, Nicholas, abby, Steven, Jack and Amos especially) and still do, i give you my thanks. To my sister's friends whom i see great grief, distress and effort (in helping out etc) i'm really touched (Rui ying, Edmund, Si Ying, Ler Shan, Alvin, my sister's church cell group members and of course Jon. And again this only shows what i have seen and not mean who grieves more or less etc etc). Oh yes, to her friends whom she met in her stay in the hospital, Zinny etc. I know i'm bitching alot here, but i also thank my relatives for being there then and even now.

I do not wish to be my sister, but i do want to show with my life how she lived and how she influenced those around her....

Just like now,
You are still my beloved...